Everything I ever wanted

So all I ever really wanted was to be a mom, well, that's not quite true, but close enough.  By mom, I mean stay-at-home mom, June Cleaver style, but alas, this is not 1950, women have won the right to be...men.  Yep, I said it, women's lib, thank you, you thrust the dagger deep into the heart of chilvary and the honor that came with simply being a mom.  Yes I went to college, yes I got a good education, yes I am capable of a successful career outside of the home.  I did have a career, a good one, I made good money, had a nice new car, bought my own home, had a dog (well, 3 actually), but all I wanted was to be a mom...to raise my own children.  Don't flame me for that, I know women who work outside of the home loathe that notion, but that is how I see it in regards to my life and my children and that is all I can speak to, I am not you, I do not judge, I simply know what is right for me in my heart and my mind.  I do not want someone else with my children 40 hours a week while I am away, I do not want someone else teaching them their ABC's, getting them up from nap, or witnessing the many firsts.  I am the mom, and I want to be the mom every minute of everyday and so the conflict begins.

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