It's back...

I went and got cocky, finally admitted that I was feeling great, had been for nearly 2 months, the weight was finally coming off and what happens?  I run into a brick wall!  I'm beyond frustrated, and I don't know where to turn.  I feel like there is something physically wrong with me, I do not think this is PPD any longer.  Yes, I do think I had PPD, but I think the PPD was muddling whatever is physically wrong.  I went to the doctor and the doctor brushed everything off as psychological, but I know it's not all in my head, it can't be, right?  Here are the symptoms:

Hot flashes
Crazy sweating (like the back of my knees sweat so bad that I leave wet spots on the couch)
Extreme fatigue
Very itchy scalp
Weight gain (5 lbs in one week is not normal)
Headaches
Increased appetite, but nausea after eating
Increased thirst
Muscle pain
Irritability
Depression
Brain fog

I had felt terrible since Gia was born, I had not lost a single pound since 2 weeks postpartum, I was exhausted and irritable and I attributed it all to a mix between wacky postpartum hormones and PPD.  I cannot even begin to put into words the elation I felt as the fog lifted and I started feeling human again, so why did it suddenly come back?  The first symptom was the hot flashes that started about a week ago.  I tried to ignore them, I didn't want to believe that it was all coming back, but as the days rolled on, the symptoms came back one by one.  Each morning I stepped on the scale to see I had gained a little more and a little more.  I am now 5 lbs up and so exhausted I can barely keep my head up let alone take care of two young kids and open my store I was so excited about!  I am feeling so defeated.

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  1. The Koontz Family AdventuresTue Nov 15, 10:16:00 AM

    I wish I could find a good doctor out there for you. No it is not normal and should not be brushed off as PPD. I wish I had some ggreat advice. I will be praying and hoping you will find the right doctor soon!

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